will someone please tell me what im doing with my life

It's my life. So why can't I control any of it? Why is the universe so determined to humble me?

xojordie

Some inspiration

SoManyDefinitionsOFbeauty.

You just have to discover yours and it's like a silly little spark igniting so much more than you intended. Sincerity means everything, so if your insides match with your outsides (studies have shown, Matching Delivery to Content) others will just be drawn to you.

Natural, Organic, Lovely. (This applies everything from food to the soul)

I thoroughly believe in looking your best at all moments. It then follows that you'll feel just as amazing. Even if all your doing in lounging.

Always be yourself. Everyone else is going conservative and wearing chunky Michael Kors' watches right now...but you're drawn to homemade friendship bracelets? Perfect :]

Friends.

Lovers.

Family.

Sisters.

Amazing. Individual. Obviously.

xojordie

ch-ch-changes

It's been a while..

Unfortunatly, we can't just pull a Peter Pan and skip adulthood. And as much as I've tried..life keeps pulling me forward.

I adored the grunge phase, but it's nice going shopping for suits with my Mom at Banana Republic. I've spent so long detering relationships, and avoiding responsiblitiy, and just hiding in general. I don't regret anything; I am who I am because of everything that hurt, but the future is looking wonderful, now that I've accepted it.

xojordie

Slutty can be lovely

I've been stuck lately. Just frustrated and upset. I love school and studying and people and professors. But then by Thursday my random swing of depression had just kicked in full blast, and there was no escaping it. I love my boyfriend, I know I do. I took care of him when he had food poisoning all night two weekends ago. And I spent the entire next day shopping at Walmart and Target and random boutiques with him. But I just needed to get away from him this last weekend. I just wanted to yell at my best friend. And hide from all of my other friends.

Someone once said, "just keep going through the motions." Perfect.

At least we threw the most fantastic, spontaneous Halloween party last night. Sort of like a weird fresh start. Sometimes I forget, a hot shower, manicure and deep contintioning treatment don't do what you want them to. But a raging party full of boys and catty girls and tears and hugging and dancing and slutty costumes, that is the perfect mental turnaround.

xojordie