this time

spoiled and sleepy

Merry Christmas :]

I hope you all got everything you so desired. I certainly got more than enou

gh, and then went shopping again with my beloved sister and best friend all morning. So lovely.

Silk and Cashmere and leather and a Camera, Straightner, 2pairs of Boots, a Watch, 3pairs of Sunglasses, Cookbooks, Chocolate, Hair Products, Make Up, Nail Polish, Ect.

Happy.

and single. Due to the fact that this bitch broke up with her boyfriend. Such an awful break up. So much sadness and tears. But I'm better on my own. What with 30 hours of work, full time classes, clubs, events, writing, family, friends, and training for my half marathon. Now I don't really have anyone but myself to answer to.

I want to be amazing and successful and great.

Question: CAN I DO THIS AND STILL HAVE A MAN IN MY LIFE?

xojordie

Wintaah Time

In california, ittle lovelies

Time for Everything.

will someone please tell me what im doing with my life

It's my life. So why can't I control any of it? Why is the universe so determined to humble me?

xojordie

hello world, there you are.

I don't understand worrying. I don't want to do things the easy way. I refuse to be safe. I want it all, and I'm not going to obtain that through a job boxing groceries, just because it's "safer." I made friends with an executive at St. John's Knits at my current job. So fabulous. Wish me luck on my finals lovers.

xojordie.

Beauty and the Beast

What is it that makes up a woman? I must admit, I'm severly influenced by the fashion magazines. But at the same time I'm in love with Nylon Magazine..which is a anti-women's magazine, for women.

So this is what I'm pondering.

Must we be quiet?

Can we be intelligent?

How sexy can we be till we cross a line?

Do we get to wear t-shirts? Cleavage?

I prefer debatable beauty. But sometimes I want everyone to approve.

xojordie

trains, planes, boats. pick your metaphor.

In England there's this saying, Mind The Gap. The idea being that you mind the gap between the train and the platform. Well the transition between youngin to young adult has got me feeling like the gap is ever present. And once I've realized I've made a mistake, do I jump back to the steady platform where I've been waiting, bored and uninspired. Or do I make the leap to the train, a train that will be racing through the most gorgeous parts of the world, and yet I have no idea what's ahead or what the places really hold.

It's interesting, coming out of a dark train tunnel and into the light. A wonderful feeling, and yet whooshing back into a tunnel somehow feeds the soul as well. So perhaps it's key to make the leap, but enjoy everything that's been and everything that was. Because, ultimately, even though I'm shedding my skin and becoming something-- who I WAS correlates to who I AM.

xojordie

Some inspiration

SoManyDefinitionsOFbeauty.

You just have to discover yours and it's like a silly little spark igniting so much more than you intended. Sincerity means everything, so if your insides match with your outsides (studies have shown, Matching Delivery to Content) others will just be drawn to you.

Natural, Organic, Lovely. (This applies everything from food to the soul)

I thoroughly believe in looking your best at all moments. It then follows that you'll feel just as amazing. Even if all your doing in lounging.

Always be yourself. Everyone else is going conservative and wearing chunky Michael Kors' watches right now...but you're drawn to homemade friendship bracelets? Perfect :]

Friends.

Lovers.

Family.

Sisters.

Amazing. Individual. Obviously.

xojordie

ch-ch-changes

It's been a while..

Unfortunatly, we can't just pull a Peter Pan and skip adulthood. And as much as I've tried..life keeps pulling me forward.

I adored the grunge phase, but it's nice going shopping for suits with my Mom at Banana Republic. I've spent so long detering relationships, and avoiding responsiblitiy, and just hiding in general. I don't regret anything; I am who I am because of everything that hurt, but the future is looking wonderful, now that I've accepted it.

xojordie

Strong Women

Forbes recently put out their list of the most powerful women.

http://www.forbes.com/wealth/power-women/gallery

Of corse the top of the list was a swarm of women in politics. I wish I could say I knew who they all were but alas I don't. Amongst Michelle Obama and Hilary Clinton, though, was Beyonce and Lady Gaga. I guess it just proves that if you do what you love, and do it well, stay true to yourself, and work hard you can obtain so much.

It wasn't long ago that a tell-all

came out about Lady Gaga and all her craziness, and yet, here she is at the top of the Forbes list of most powerful women. Hooray for her.

I think the most endearing part about this list is that the women aren't all pure perfection. Lady Gaga had an eating disorder. Ellen, as fantastic as she is, falls in the minority with her sexuality. Angelina Jolie, #21, has a whole sordid history, complete with blood necklaces and massochism.

The thing about both Angelina and Beyonce is that, they too were once young. And all of the tourmoil and emotion and heartbreak that besoughts any young girl, hurt them too.

However I look to them with admiration. They became the most amazing young women and exemplify beauty and power.

In my life, I too want to be respected and hold some power, even if it's just between some colleges. But it's not easy when your constantly trying to get past the bad, and simulataneously

realize that it makes you who you are. People always say that you can't have any sort of sordid history to make it in politics, but amongst all the female politicians are powerful, human, imperfect women.

I suppose you got to just love and respect yourselves. I've found that you must if you want anyone else to follow suit.

xojordie

ps Chelsea Handler was number 33. Fantastic.