Crisis inspires

It's weird, I lost my best friend. I cried, and now I'm completly over it and feel relaxed. The weight is off my shoulders and it's inspiring me to be better-- aka To e someone other than the girl who talked shit/ felt insecure because of her bestie. And I want to appreciate my loved ones and hav adventures with them. I'm happy. I have so much and lost the one thig bringing me down. I know longer have to care about ally . I can't wait for this Saturday when I get to switch rooms and get rid of her second bed sitting in our room right now. And get rid of her A and her bulletin board. Maybe I'll give them to good will. But no more ppl asking me if we are getting along. No more disapproving looks and bitter comments from ally. No more tension or worry shell come home. No more talking shit on her or caring if she talks on me. No more trying really hard to make it work. And no more being judged because my bet friend is a bitch. And no more letting her bitchiness rub off on me :) and it's finals so I can focus on that. Then after they're over, my life changes.

I guess I just needed someone to tell me in worthless for me I realize I'm not.